The Only Way Through is Back

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Many people will argue that revisiting the past is something that doesn’t need to be done. Moreover, they represent taking a trip down memory lane as an inhibitor to moving forward. "Don’t look back" “let it go”. That perspective is all fear based. I treat my past like a beacon. It guides me, it grounds me and it reminds me of all the things I need to remember.

I believe that when unprocessed trauma is attached to your past, that’s when the past becomes toxic or dangerous to revisit and dwell inside. I live my whole life now so that when I'm an 82 year old lady, I can sit in my memories and allow them to bring me joy, strength and especially entertainment. Who am I if not a culmination of my experiences? Those experiences come from my past. Therefore, my past is my present. It’s a part of me. Matter is neither created or destroyed, the energy is just consistently transformed and transforming. The difficult things that I have been through, the heart breaking things that I have survived, they've given me character. Like an old mirror left in an attic with dust, those brown dark spots and maybe a crack or two. That mirror has stories to tell of everyone who has ever even glanced at their reflection. That mirror says; I see you, I see you the way YOU look at you. I hear you, I hear your love, your fear, your pain, your anticipation. I hold space for you to go through what you need to go through and I allow you to see yourself and this world just as you need to at every given moment. My past does this for me.